For the first time ever, I'm sharing my complete transformation story with you—along with the raw details, pictures and all!
It all started 3 years ago when I was caught in a toxic, cheating marriage that sucked every ounce of self worth out of me. As many people do, I ended up turning to alcohol and food to numb the emotional pain. When I left the relationship, I was unhappy, depressed, single and 30 pounds heavier. To say it was a low point in my life would be an understatement.
It took 2 years of yo-yo dieting, binge eating, depression medication and a hell of a victim mentality to get to my breaking point. I self loathed myself so much that I couldn't care for my body or mind, sustain any type of romantic relationship or give anything to my family, friends and career. I was mentally, physically and spiritually spent.
During this 'rock bottom' phase of my life, a friend of mine encouraged me to join a '6 Day Eat Clean Challenge.' It was based on Herbalife nutrition and required $10 to enter + the 2 starter packs. For almost no buy-in, I had no reason to say 'no.' Let's be serious, I had nothing to lose either.
When I started this challenge, my mindset was hopeless. After years of "trying" to lose the weight, I had lost all faith in myself to achieve any goal I attempted. Everyone said, 'you can do anything for 6 days,' but the reality was, I couldn't even go a day without my crutch: the 2+ glasses of wine I drank every night.
On the same day as the start of the challenge, I received some scary test results—my liver levels were 5x the normal range. My doctor insisted on an emergency ultra-sound and a retake of my blood work exactly one week later.
This was my wake up call. I had no choice but to attempt this challenge with 100% dedication. My body was clearly sending a sign that it couldn't handle the self sabotage any longer.
So, on June 21, I weighed in at our local nutrition club (Nourish), had my body fat percentage read (39.4% ... yes you read that right) and my metabolic age calculated (57). I was in shock. I knew I had let myself go, but not to this extent.
For the next 6 days, I had 2 shakes, 2 healthy snacks and 1 healthy meal a day, took pictures of every meal and posted them in our Facebook accountability group (where others did the same), ditched my morning coffee creamer and evening alcohol, slept at least 8 hours, exercised daily, popped the supplements I needed to (1 natural metabolism enhancer & a multivitamin) and drank enough water to fill a swimming pool.
Surprisingly enough, the days went by with ease. With each passing day that I didn't give into weakness or temptation, I gained a little of my power back. By the end of the week, my physical and mental fatigue had wasted away, I felt more alert and energetic, my skin was clear and glowing and I didn't have an ounce of bloat or puffiness. I had also lost 6 pounds and my liver levels had gone back to normal.
ARE YOU KIDDING ME? 6 pounds in 6 days? How is that even possible (my doctor sure didn't believe it)? It was. I had $150 to show for it, too (the winner wins the cash prize). 😉
I remember walking in to the final weigh-in overwhelmed with fear that the scale wouldn't reflect all of my hard work. When I saw the number looking back at me, I knew that moment was going to be a game-changer. A light switch flipped. It wasn't about the weight loss either—it was about regaining trust in myself and the belief that I am strong enough to achieve anything I put my mind to.
Within 1 month, I had lost 13 pounds. To date, I've lost 21 pounds.
After a 3-year self-sabataging roller coaster, I never thought in a million years I'd rediscover the "me" I loved so much. Yet, here I am.
If you have gotten to a hopeless place in your journey, please know that there is a light at the end of your tunnel. With an unwavering support system, nutrition based on nourishing your mind, body and soul and trust—both in yourself and the process—anything is truly possible. It takes that initial shift to make the light switch go off, but once it has, girl (or guy), you'll be unstoppable.
ON THE LEFT: A girl handcuffed by restriction, shame, control, fear, anxiety, toxic thoughts, negative self talk, low self-esteem and yo-yo dieting.
ON THE RIGHT: A girl freed by self love, daily care, positivity, confidence and nourishing food (a lot more of it too—without the calorie or macro counting!)
If you'd like more information on the plan that worked for me or need a support partner along the way, give me a shout (see form below). I'd love nothing more to be able to show you the light, too. 💕
My next group is a 6-Day POST-THANKSGIVING CHALLENGE, starting Wed. Nov. 29! If you're interested in joining, please fill out the form below.
The secret of change is to focus all your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new.✨
The past is there for a reason. It has strengthened, grown and molded you into who you are today. Whether it’s a painful or pretty past, believe it or not, it served a purpose.
Instead of fighting what was (or is), choose to trust that you’re exactly who and where you are supposed to be. If you’re not in the body you want, if you haven’t met Mr. Right, if you don’t have the dream job you thought you’d have, it’s OK.
But, until you accept yourself and what the present moment looks like, you won’t ever make room for true transformation. That’s what allows you to build the new.
The beautiful thing is, the “new” can be whatever you want it to be! You are never stuck. You are ALWAYS capable of radical change.
Mastin Kipp says it best:
If you choose to see everything as a miracle, then where you are right now is perfect. There is nowhere to run to; there is nothing else to do except be in this moment and allow what is to be. From that place of radical acceptance, major change can happen. The first step in any transformational experience is acceptance and surrender to the present moment, the way that it is. From that place we have the awareness, humility and power to change what is.”
Every day in Yoga Sculpt, before you start, the teacher asks you to set an intention.
This morning, I closed my eyes and said “letting go.” … of every person, every feeling, everything that’s not serving me anymore.
The teacher then sometimes chimes in and offers her personal intention with the class. Not a second later she says:
“Today I encourage you to LET IT GO.”
I was shocked that her words exactly mirrored mine.
Back story—I have felt stuck lately in many facets of my life, not really knowing what’s worth my time, effort and heart, what pieces of my life need to be shed and what’s next for me. Because we all know that you can never move forward—fulfill your purpose, meet ‘your person’ or become who He has planned you to be—if the wrong things are filling you up and weighing you down.
So, I surrendered a couple days ago and told God I needed a sign to point me in the right direction.
THIS WAS MY SIGN.
It was not a coincidence. And, it was SO liberating.
If something is weighing on your heart today (like it was mine), ask Him or the universe for a sign. Ask for direction and I guarantee you’ll get it. The universe is ALWAYS working for your good--you just have to be patient and keep your eyes, ears and heart open.
Now, I’m starting my day with a clearer mind, happier heart and much less weight on my shoulders.
Why don’t you try it?
This is my first #TransformationTuesday post in maybe 5 years. It’s 7 weeks to the date that I started this journey, and have officially lost a total of 17 pounds.
Of course, if you know me by now, it's not about the weight. But, it shows what can happen when you shift from a life of restriction, control and perfectionism to one dedicated to self care, nourishment and positivity.
If you’re in a dark place, mentally and physically, and feel like you can’t get out, I’M HERE TO TELL YOU THAT YOU CAN. It took 3 years to finally say ‘enough is enough,’ but I do know for a fact I’d still be on that same destructive, depressed path if it weren’t for doing these 3 things first:
ACCEPT WHERE YOU ARE. Whether you love yourself or not, you got here somehow–fighting it won’t change your circumstances. It’s from this place of radical acceptance, major change can happen. Surrender to who and where you are in this moment.
KNOW THAT YOU ARE WORTHY of this change–of loving your body, living every day in confidence and knowing pure happiness, both with yourself and the world around you. You are BEAUTIFUL and you do DESERVE this.
TAKE EVERY DAY AS IT COMES. Don’t concentrate on how far you have to go. Don’t make crazy milestone weight loss goals that are light years away. This will overwhelm you and make you quit before you even get started. Instead, focus on what you can do to better your mind, body and soul each day. These little efforts have a way of creeping up on you (and then all of a sudden, 7 weeks later, you’ve lost 2 dress sizes?!?!) Be patient. Be kind to yourself. And enjoy the journey each and every day.
Stop waiting. It’s worth every sacrifice. You’re beautiful. Go get ’em. xoxox
⚠️ Accountability Pic ⚠️
No special filters, editing or MAKEUP! 😱
Ya’ll, I cant stay this enough—it’s ALL about MINDSET, MINDSET, MINDSET.
The difference from just 4 months ago when I decided to get back in shape 👉 I approached fitness & weight loss from a place of self hate, shame and deprivation. Now I come at it from a place of LOVE.
When I CHOSE (it was a CONSCIOUS decision EVERY day & still is) to start feeding my mind positivity and treating my body like a home, the weight just melted off (I’ve lost 20 lbs).
We all need to stop being so damn hard on ourselves. Perfection doesn’t exist. Comparison is death. Tell yourself you’re beautiful every day because YOU ARE. And, surprise, your body will start rewarding you for it. 💕🙌🏼
If you do what you’ve always done, you’ll get what you’ve always gotten. 💫
I said ‘yes’ to this shake 5 months ago & now I crazy smile all the time, fit into my cute ass jeans & love on people a whole lot more.
Talk about game-changer.
YOU have the power to redirect your path at any given moment.
If you’re not happy, don’t be afraid to step outside your comfort zone & try a different route. ✌🏽💕 #WednesdayWisdom
Whenever I'm faced with a difficult decision, I ask myself: What wouldI do if I weren't afraid of making a mistake, feeling rejected, looking foolish or being alone? I know for sure that when you remove the fear, the answer you've been searching for comes into focus. And as you walk into what you fear, you should know for sure that your deepest struggle can, if you're willing and open, produce your greatest strength.
Today, I stumbled upon a screenshot I took from a passage in Oprah’s book, This I Know For Sure, and wanted to share it with you.
I recently stepped out on a leap of faith and made a really big decision. One that I didn’t know I had the courage to do. We surprise ourselves like that sometimes. But often times over-thinking, second-guessing and doubting ourselves follow said actions.
But why do we question ourselves? At the time, our heart [and deep down in our gut] knew that the decision was 100% what we wanted and needed. If we are true to ourselves and really in tune with what we deserve, then why do analyze what our heart, higher power and the universe is trying to tell us?
Because of fear. Fear of maybe we’re wrong. Fear of maybe that it’s actually ourselves that are the problem. Fear that we haven’t tried enough things to make it right. Fear of being alone. Fear of judgement. Fear of losing the only thing we know. Fear of change. Fear of letting go. Fear of a new lifestyle. Fear of finding out who our friends are and aren’t. Fear of being hurt. Fear of vulnerability. Fear of losing control. Fear of not feeling wanted anymore. Fear of backlash. Fear of….anything.
Oprah’s right. What if we stripped away our ultimate fears. What if our fears weren’t even a possibility?
We’d be able to see ourselves more clear, live more confidently and own our lives fully. We’d stand up for ourselves, what we believe in and what we deserve the first time around without hesitation. We’d be our own bosses driving our own show without input from anyone or any fear. We’d make the decision and own it, period.
–> If you have to make a difficult decision, first, eliminate “what could happen” aka what you fear the most, and see what your heart tells you then. Don’t ignore the message because I’ll promise you this: it will come back to haunt you time and time again, in different forms each time.
–> After you eliminate the possibility of your worst fears, really look inside and listen. I bet, you will see yourself and the situation at hand with a lot more clarity.
–> And then TRUST. Trust your heart. Trust that this situation or decision has presented itself to you for a reason and that your response to it will not kick you down but catapult you forward.
The ego will most definitely insert itself into this process. You will feel resistance inside. This will come in the form of questioning, sadness, regret, over thinking, anxiety, fatigue, lack of confidence, you name it. An inner voice [not our true voice], also known as our ego, tends to feed on the negative, the insecurities, the gloom. When it feels as though you are finally taking the reins of your life, the ego will start to lose power. Fight the ego's negative influence and remain strong. Again, TRUST in yourself, your higher power and the larger plan at work.
Like Oprah said, if you are willing to change your perspective and open your heart to this struggle that has been set before you, you will, in time, uncover the purpose of the pain in addition to your true strength.
Life can throw you curve-balls and they have the ability to cripple you. But what you have to know is that no struggle is ever just a struggle. It’s always paired with an opportunity that’s right around the corner. If you stay strong, keep the right attitude, remain in faith, concentrate on you, and trust, it will surprise you when you least expect it.
Today’s society has made it so hard for women to feel happy and confident in who they are. We live our lives on social media, a platform that does a damn good job at only highlighting the best of everyone’s lives. People only blast out the perfectly lighted/photoshopped/enhanced version of themselves [I think we are all guilty of this]. I mean, why would you put out anything else?
Let’s be real, ya’ll. You don’t see the muffin top after pizza and beer night with your hunny; only the sucked-in, ab-alicious shot first thing in the morning in which you are perfectly angled in the position you have mastered after long hours in the bathroom mirror. You don’t see the drawn out fights with a significant other or their new sleeping spot on the couch after; only the rare “just because” flowers your “best friend, soul mate and #LOML” sent. You don’t see the sadness from a miscarriage a couple just experienced; only the selfie from the air on the way to their get-away vacation to escape the overwhelming tragedy. You don’t see the everyday struggle a fitness enthusiast has with food and the scale; only her doing rep after rep in the gym to forget the emptiness, exhaustion and depression she has because of it. Get my drift?
Social media brainwashes you into thinking everyone’s bodies, careers and lives are so much better than yours. You start to compare your body to the other girl’s, your relationship to “that couple,” your successes and failures to the next person on your feed. Your mind slowly shifts to “I’m not good enough” and then “how can I change to be more perfect, successful, lovable, wealthier, etc.” Been there? We all have. It’s human nature.
BUT IT’S NOT HEALTHY!
It’s okay to have goals to strive toward and things you’d like to transform in your life, but it’s also okay to be happy where you are, right now. I take that back. It’s not okay…it’s ABSOLUTELY essential to love and be content with yourself in the here and now. No matter what you are going through, others have gone through it too [they just might not make it their status update]. News flash: you are here for a reason. You are how you are, exactly the size you are, going through exactly what you are for a larger purpose. God doesn’t take you through troubled times to leave you there. He has a plan designed ONLY for YOU and this season of your life, believe it or not, is part of that plan.
Just because you see someone else having more success than you right now, doesn’t mean God doesn’t have your milestone lined up for you right around the corner. You might be seeing these “highlights” in everyone else’s life right now, but that doesn’t mean you are failing at anything, aren’t as good as them or aren’t as DESERVING as them. Your time IS COMING! Concentrate on YOU. You are your only competitor. Do the best you can day in and day out, and enjoy the process. Be kind to yourself. This is your life and your story, and it’s a beautiful one, in times of rain and in times of sunshine.
Oh, and while you’re at it, stay off social media. I recently deleted Facebook off my phone. It was hard at first, like trying to break any other addiction [sad, I know]. But, as the days went on, I found myself reaching for it less and less. And you know what? I also found myself feeling lighter, happier and less stressed/anxious. I’m going through some things right now in my life, and I noticed as I scrolled through my feed that my entire being shifted, in a negative way. I felt anger seeing new baby announcements, disappointment in myself viewing before-and-after body transformations, jealously scrolling over pictures of the newly-announced Carolina Hurricanes cheerleaders [because I’ve convinced myself – or social media has – that I was younger, skinnier, prettier, happier, blah, blah, blah, then], and the list goes on.
But GUESS WHAT folks: there’s so much more to life than what you see through the screen. Once you distance yourself, I promise your spirit will be lifted and you’ll have more time to concentrate on YOU [in a healthy way], not anyone else.
You are beautiful, in the here and now, and don’t let anyone or anything [especially Facebook] tell you otherwise.
Thanks for stopping by! It means a lot to me.